Sad

I just found out that my grandmother passed away. We were expecting it, but just not in this way. She had a stroke a couple of weeks ago, and she wasn't doing well. They were transporting her today from dialysis back to the place where she was staying for rehab. The ambulance she was in rear ended a TDOT truck. She was killed along with one of the other people in the ambulance, a volunteer firefighter from Franklin. I honestly don't know what to say. I am home alone, and I just don't know what to say. I just wasn't expecting her to pass away this way. I was expecting a peaceful death. I mean we knew her death was coming, and we had been preparing for it. She hadn't been doing well for a long time now. I am just so worried that she suffered in some way. I feel so guilty because I am here in California and not home in TN. I know how Jack felt last week when we found out that his aunt had passed away. I just feel so helpless.

I know, I know I am horrible at keeping up with this blog thing.

I am so freakin' fed up right now, and I have no one to talk to around here so I am typing instead.

I hate that Jack and Ken work together. It does nothing but cause problems. When I come home from work, I get to leave it at work. When Jack comes home from work, work comes home with him because Ken is his boss and feels it necessary to discuss things at home that should be discussed at work. I have had several nights ruined due to Ken having to talk about something work related. It is that whole, "You could do better at work" conversation. I get stuck listening to it every time. It makes me ridiculously uncomfortable. I hate it. My boss doesn't come to the apartment and tell me what I could do to do my job better, and I don't want to here about what is going on at Jack's work unless he wants to tell me about it. Anyway the reason I bring all of this up is that tonight Ken comes home and tells me that he wants me to talk to Jack how he needs to do his job better and that other people that they work with are saying things. Yada yada yada. My thoughts are that if someone thinks he isn't doing his job right or well or whatever they need to talk to him about it at the time it is occurring so that he can fix the problem. Don't wait until after the fact to say well you could've. It is too late then. It is bad enough that I don't get to spend much time with him and when I do he is upset because he feels like people are talking about him behind his back. It just annoys me to no end. I just hate to hear negative things about my husband. I never know (with Ken) what is just blown out of proportion. I have heard so many stories changed around to sound worse than they really are with him. It is annoying. Today he tells me that they are going to call Jack in the office on Tuesday to tell him he is on probation. I just think that the company is going down the whole because the owner doesn't know how to run it properly, and now he is just trying to find places to cut. He has already fired like 3 people, since Jack started working there. Ok I am finished bitching now. I will write sometime in the future. No guarantees.